Life is tough enough but leveling up is tougher especially when you grew up with a single mother did her best to hold it down and did a job like no other until you talk to your pops and hear the truth about mother. Not that she a bad person, just an undercover lunatic growing up you watched her do a bunch of stupid shit and realized after you found out the truth that the break up between your parents had nothing to do with you. Everybody want what they can't have, and if they can't have it then the whole shit go bad. Hottest love coldest hate you know the shit is just so sad, when you think about the positive household you could've had. Even if you came from the gutter, there were good times everybody came together on holidays, you know, good vibes you would never think everybody was hurting inside until the holidays are over and everyone hates each other again. You got a good head on your shoulders, so you make strides everybody clapping for you, so you take pride and when you get high up enough you start to realize that these people were holding you back this entire time. Now you have to make a decision, and it's a tough one before you had a big ass family, now you got none. That don't mean you in the wrong, you walking your own path and the fact they can't come with you is what makes it sad. Now you alone on a big mountain, staring at the world from atop and see just how deranged and strange this whole life is. Wisdom, understanding, and knowledge is what you chase now cause the universe want you to change the world in your style.